I can see this needs to end
losing who I am chasing what only devalues
its hard to recognize the stakes
or the state of mind that takes place
when I feel there’s nothing left
I can see what has kept me blind
and all the right doors closed
but for every path i chose
ive learnt to camouflage that emptiness I know
grows darker with time
I see it with my own two eyes and its coming to life
the seasons will change and life will bend your heart
you wont see it on my face
awake and moving on
forsaken by my own ways
head first into the wreckage of a life I do not know
nothing but time and thought to wear my mind
somehow the damage keeps me whole
Like a bad dream on repeat for days
I crawl into shadows for weeks
I know the way but part of me wants to keep this going
fighting for change inside myself
optimistic there’s still something left
These days don’t feel like really living
in the grips of dissociation I am standing by
searching for a source and reason
empty heart closed fist
anxiety’s kiss upon my neck
credits
from Wrong Side Of History,
track released April 20, 2015
Music written and recorded by REDIVIDER
Lyrics: Brandon Espinoza
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